A better back and conversations

My back is much better. I’ve never really had a “back problem”, so this sudden development requires some adjustment of things. Minor things. Like an extra pillow, and the constant presence of a hot water bottle.

Some of you have mailed in and asked how I am doing. I am deeply touched. Some of you have also noticed that this blog isn’t being updated as regularly as earlier, and been astute enough to point out that the back has nothing to do with it. For a couple of months now, a drought has struck the blog.

I wave my hands about to find some glimmer of a story or the seed of a poem. I don’t find much. I don’t even feel like ranting.

The other day with DB – (someone who was in undergrad with me and makes incredible morning tea) and I were yapping about how we’ve lost our patience with conversations on the phone. Ten years back, the phone was an extended limb. The phone bills would sky rocket. Friends were called to explore the minute details of everything. They were called without purpose or intent.

That’s changed now. I cannot appear to have a phone conversation beyond five minutes without feeling mildly drained. There’s the occasional 20 minute conversation – but that’s usually with someone there’s very little chance of having a face-to-face meeting with. And yet, the conversations I have are somehow more meaningful. More funny. More sure. There’s a certain rhythm to them. They are more intuitive.

I am trying to find the same balance with this blog. Yes, there are stories in my head. There are some rants dying to be articulated. And yet, I don’t want to write here for the sake of asserting that I can still write. Conversation is not proof of existence.

I say all this, and then will post a Youtube video tomorrow. At the age of 27, you’d expect that I would take myself a bit more seriously. Nope. Not happening. :)

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9 Responses to A better back and conversations

  1. Hey! Good to hear from you, indeed. I hope you get right on track very, very soon. As to the blog, it doesn’t matter! Take your time. There are HUGE fans like me waiting around, ready to put up with drought, monsoon, tornado or whatever else may come your way. And I’m one of those who believe something decent can always be forced out of someone, but something good is another story altogether. So, take your time till you feel ready for it again.
    Please take good care of yourself, and get all fit and perfect soon!
    Many good vibes your way.

  2. Give it a rest! Your back, your conversations. Whatever needs to be rested. It’s good to read you even when it’s only 5 minutes.

  3. “Conversation is not proof of existence” Lovely. Well said.

    There are those that think that conversation is the corner stone of life ! Conversation is the wrong word here. One babble perhaps suits it better !

    :)

    This rant about the rants not reaching the keyboard is indeed good !

  4. I think conversation is a sufficient, but not necessary, as proof of existence. :-/

    Good to hear your back is better. :-)

  5. Now I have to edit myself: Conversation is sufficient, not “a sufficient”.

  6. Ankur

    Do get the back problem diagnosed; often it’s nothing but in my case it turned out to be a disc inflammation that I eventually overcame with yoga, ayurveda, and by not paying much attention to it, not necessarily in that order! And these back problems do happen without any obvious reason; Iv come to the conclusion that they are usually stress-related. And do let the poetry flow please!

  7. ra

    I don’t trust you, your back or the nhs. when if your next trip to india to get checked out?

  8. rest & sleep is good medicine. and yearly check-up is always good idea… take care

  9. “Conversation is not proof of existence”
    Lovely!